SO - here we go again.
I was getting tons of attention and loved it. My marriage, which has always been a bit trying, was super strained. I was walking a dangerous path and felt like the road to divorce was near after 15 years. Wedding rings were off, our paths were going in opposite directions and sadly, GOD was nowhere in sight. Seems neither my husband nor I remembered our vows. During this time I ate myself into oblivion, stopped with the HCG and the doctor (the money being invested could have built a small house I'm sure!). I went from wearing cute clothes, working out - to eating anything and everything and blowing up like a balloon. I refused to buy "NEW" clothes - so the consignment shops and Goodwill got lots of my attention as I rebuilt my FAT wardrobe. I had given all my FAT clothes away - every stitch of them, vowing never to return to them. What a mistake that was (or was it)? The pounds kept coming and coming and coming - and my willpower and engery level kept going, going, going - down, down down. To this day, I'm fighting for it to return. Something has to be different this time!
It was at this time that I was reconnected with my foster brother and his family. God knows just what we need when we need it. I was invited to their church and went. It was there I found my church home-my church family and was finally saved from the world as I knew it. I built a relationship with Jesus Christ, understood his place in my life, and spiritually was full to the top! This was about 4 years ago. Although my spiritual life was AMAZING. And it remains AMAZING - I love my Lord and Savior with every inch of my being - with every single pound! However, the weight continued to pile on. Today, I have gained every bit of that 102 lbs. back. Much to my DISGUST - and yes, that's the only word for it. It's totally disgusting and regardless what anyone tells you - there is absolutely no way to feel good about yourself, your life, or anything when you are 102 lbs. overweight. Not even loving Jesus more than yourself can get you over the mental state you are in at 100 lbs. overweight. It's because we are HUMAN that it DOES matter that we're 100 lbs. over weight. We are made of flesh and have fleshly ways. Below, I am getting ready to start my 1st race with my trainer, beautiful and awesome Stephanie. She ran my pace and stayed with me every step of the way. Do you know how it feels to accomplish that after being 100 lbs. overweight? So, gain it back - REALLY KELLEY?